I really very unhappy now.......

FAT!

OMG life is so sucky now... Exam periods are coming real soon and I got sick this very moment? What the hell.... I vomitted on Sunday night due to too long hours of starving. So when I had somefood i threw out everything, I think my stomach was rejecting everything that I ate. That's the reason who brought me sorethroat. I hate sorethroat, so painful!!

Last night my aunts video call me, when she saw me only already saying I got fatter. Heartbreak straight....I know I got fatter but I also don't know why I can get fat..Maybe I eat too much? Or I didn't exercise? Oh no, I don't want to become big bao when go back Malaysia..Pleasee.... Must start to control my diet and do more frequent exercise....But the thing is how far my determination can go? 1 day? or maybe 1 hour?

Was thinking is there any other alternative way that can reduce my weight? Aduhh, take pills? NO way, that is so dangerous. If there is any side effect how? I don't want to die so early. Exercise? Yea maybe I should but I merely have time for that now. exam is more important than everything now.... Eat less? You think big eater like me can meh? Saw food only I already like hungry ghost fighting for food though I am not hungry... You see, like that how to reduce my bloody weight? Must figure something about it....If continue like this, I think none of you can recognise me when I go back....

So if you all got any good recommendation on diet please let me know ya.. You don't want to lose such a good friend of yours right? Aren't you? I knew that...hehehe.. Remember sharing is caring.... muakzz..

Fantastic!!

I found this clip. This is so amazing. Genius are always around us....I hope I can be 10% of him also enough already... Then my actuarial is saved...No need to stress out for the nonsense stupid maths..sob sob....

anyway check this out....

Mathemagician

Close your big mouth after seeing that..Maybe you can try out the way he squares all the numbers.. who knows you are the next one on my post?
hahaha.... Give your best try

First tag eveR

Wahh.... I kena tag from people le..... lai lai let's see what I say.....

1. Real name: Yunn Yi, Wong

2. Nickname: Jesses

3. Married: Err, nopee
4. Male or Female: Female
5. High school: SMK Taman Klang Utama(bet u don't know where the hell is this school)
6. College: KBU International College(Forget it, it's not KDU)
7. Short or long hair: Short-Long-Short-Long
8. Are you a health freak: I conclude myself as health freak

9. Height: 160cm. im growing taller
10. Do you have a crush on someone: Temporary nopee

11. Do you like yourself: Love ourselves before others do
12. Piercings: Yeahh..

13. Righty or Lefty: I am on the right way!!

FIRST
14. Surgery: Nahh....
15. Piercing(s): Yeapppe
16. Person you see in the morning: My family on my phone's wallpaper
17. Award: GOD awarded my parents to me
18. Sport you joined: Long list....

19. Pet: POnpoN
20. Vacation: Couldn't remember..I was very young back then
21. Concert: Never and will not ever
22. Crush: Ssshhhhh

CURRENTLY
23. Eating: Cereals...yumm
24. Drinking: Milk
25. I'm about to: SESAT for the day
*SESAT = Study Endless Stop All Temptation

YOUR FUTURE
26. Want kids: YEAPP!!! I lovee themm
27. Want to get married: WAnT for the sake of my baby
28. Careers in mind: POweRful and EliGibLe career wOmaN

WHICH ONE IS BETTER
29. Lips or eyes: NONE..Sob..
30. Hugs or kisses: HUgxx
31. Shorter or taller: TalleR??!
32. Romantic or spontaneous : CaN I have b0Th?
33. Sensitive or loud: I hate sentitive! So loud?
34. Trouble maker or hesitant: Definitely not either one

HAVE YOU EVER
35. Kissed a stranger: Too sHy for thaT...*shy*
36. Drank bubbles: BUbbles can drink ar?
37. Lost glasses/contacts: one of my hobbies
38. Ran away from home: NO money...So don't dare
39. Liked someone younger: Of course...little kids Im sayin...
40. Liked someone older: TAda, my papa n mama
41. Broken someone's heart: All the time without notice...
42. Been arrested: Maybe I Should try robbing
43. Cried when someone died: Depends who died...
44. Liked a friend: Love all my darlings n babes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
45. Yourself: Strongly believe
46. Miracles: YES, wanted to witness it and experience if possible
47. Heaven: I will be going there after I RIP
48. Santa claus: LIke santa lots but the existence....emm
49. Angels: always with me...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY ~*
50. Is there one person you want to be with right now: My mum?
51. Do you believe in God: HAve most faiTh wit GoD
52. Tag 5 people: Tag everyone who read my blog!!!

Don't ruin your day!

OMG, I lost my business assignment which I have to pass up yesterday the night before.
What the hell!!!!!! I spent more than 24 hours on that nonsense report and now you are telling me I lost it? ARGHHHHHHHHhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I actually downloaded the file from the internet and I thought it's saved on the desktop. Apparently, it wasn't there. It's just a temporary file which I choose to open, no matter how many times I saved also it will gone once you closed it. That's what I did. After few hours of last brush up, I am ready to start my finance then go to the bed. I realized I can't find the file when I try to reopen it to double check everything.

I got so damn panic and wanted to cry already. I went to get Alex to help me sort out the problem but if the file is deleted means it's gone forever. In the other words, I have redo. Since I have draft with me, I no need to start from zero again. But the second time ain't as good as the first one. I had already lost my mood and lazy to think bout it again. I just want to finish it as soon as possible then go sleep.

This is not end yet. Since I finished my report quite late, I didn't manage to revise for my finance quiz. Ended up I put in the wrong formula in calculation. Another bad thing happened. Then when I went computer lab to print my stupid assignment, I don't know what the hell is wrong with the microsoft excel, it turned out four blank pages and wasted my printing quota. I was so pissed yesterday morning!!

Anyway, when I think back everything. It's actually all my own fault. I didn't check whether my file is in my document or not, I shouldn't study last minutes for my finance, I should double check print preview before I print. Yeahh, I lost my ear phone cover the same morning as well.
Make me feel so unlucky....

Apparently my day didn't turn out bad the whole day. I went to attend this language exchange high tea in the evening with my friends. From there I get to know more people, I get one step closer with my coursemate as well. I think I shouldn't isolate myself from them too much. I need communications. I don't want to be loner!!!!!

That high tea thingy actually brighten up my day. Tomorrow is Thursday already, time is passing so fast. I still feel like it's just the begining of the week. Finals are coming soon in less than one month time. I don't know whether I can cope with it or not, but pray hard that I can go through this.

DarE devIL

Another week gone just like that and again i didn't do anything for this week. Everytime when i feel like blogging about something, I realized that I actually got nothing I can blog about what I did or what. Does this tells that I am having some sort of meaningless life? Or just some dull life? But I always said that this is definitely not what I want yet I didn't do anything to make a change.

Anyways, I think today I got something I can talk about. I went working today, I was stoning the whole day dreaming, don't know what I was doing. Probably because too tired? I guess so. Hmm, so we can actually just grab any drinks that we want at my working place. You can actually request them to make you a coffee as well. So after I sign off, I wanted to have some coffee. I went ans ask this lady at the bar 'Can you please make me a cup of mocha?'. I saw that lady before and I think I know she is one of the management staff, probably with some sort of position. But at the same time my brain was teling me that maybe she is just a full time worker that worked for quite some time.

I don't know why I go ask her make me some coffee though I know that she is quite a bitchy lady from her face and from the way she performs herself. After I asked that question then only I thought of ' shit, am I asking the wrong person?' Cause I think the moment she heard what I asked, her face reaction like abit shock? Then there is this guy turn up and said that he will make it for me. Then the lady asked me to do some cleaning for the sake of my mocha though I signed off.

Then just now I was asking my friend, who is her actually. She was telling me that she probably is one of the owners or something. But one thing is for sure, she is some BIG PEOPLE over there and I as the newbie asking her to make me a cup of coffee...How DARING is that? Who can do that? My friend said she was so shock that I asked the lady to make me coffee. She also know that this lady is not easy to deal with but again I didn't know. When I am asking her for the coffee, I know my brain was telling me 'don't ask her don't ask her' but my body never replies to the impulse sent by the brain. My mouth just asked her as if it is reflex actions........

Now when I think back also I felt a bit nervous, I never think that I will be doing this. Anyway, can't blame me. I really don't know who the hell she is. But I wasn't feeling bad for what I did anyway. I did nothing wrong, I just asked for coffee which is allowed. Since she is the one working in the bar, of course I ask her.

But I think it's actually not a big deal unless she is the one making it big deal. We shall see how she will treat me in future. Then we will know whether she is over with today or not.....

SO you I am DARING?

CRAP....

16th May 2008
16:55
Home

Just done working, wanted to start my assignment in no time. Today I don't know why but I am in happy and happening mode. Maybe because everything went well when I am working. NO bad things happened. At the same time, I figured how to do my assignment at least half. So ya I am going to complete it in a while. HOPEFULLY.

I just got back my economics quiz the other day. I knew I screwed it, I only get 4/10. What a genius I am. But nevermind, I think I will try to score it better next time. At least, it motivated me to work harder and harder. Mum said, as long as you tried your best and learn from your mistake, it's good enough. That's what we talk about learning and education. Her words reduce my tension level from the peak to average. Thanks mum. Love you.

I can't post much thing here as I want to go complete my assignment. So I will be talking to all of you again maybe tomorrow okay. Oh ya, I want to go for holiday in the year end, anyone want to join me out there? Let's plan something adventurous and challenging? Must try go beyond our limit......BUNGEE JUMP?

See you guys
END
17:05

Running out of time

13th May 2008
17:53
Fenner Hall Computer Lab

Today I for four hours of lectures but what I know is I only listen to about 45 minutes of lecture. For 15minutes I was fishing in the hall, waiting for time to pass only. Another three hours, I was rushing for my uncomplete assignment dueing at 4pm. Shall I say rushing or copying? Maybe I put it this way, I was refering my friend's working. At least I tried to understand it first? I don't know, I think I getting dumb. Or maybe I am dumb. Sigh. University life is so bad!!!! Doesn't really enjoy it also.

Another thing is last night my friend and me were talking about one friend online. That friend was with us using the computer lab as well. Suddenly she was looking at my friend's conversation because we were laughing laughing. Scared both of us to the max. After that I feel bad that we didn't let her know what we talking. But we weren't talk anything bad about her, just that something that will make everyone feel weird if she knew that. What the hell am I talking? Till now I still feel bad, I don't know whether she saw what we talked. I am worried that she angry with me, but she looks like isn't the girl who will get angry with people for small matter. I feel so bad..... like she is my friend but I never let her know what happened..sob sob

next week got another assignment due, and I didn't even start anything yet. I always procrastinate. What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I do something right ever since I am here in Australia? I some more got finals coming in less than 30 days and I haven't even start my revision. ARGH!! Things might not as bad as what I saw actually, I just need some lessons on time management. I shall really start to be serious in doing everything and stop being playful. I shall learn from you NSW, so persistent to study no matter what. HWC you also should start study and stop arranging your endless notes. WYY you should stop wasting time and concentrate in your studies. Why can't someone scold me and wake me up? ANNE where are you? Faster wake me up......

END
18:12

Midnight post

Now is 4am in the midnight and I am still awake. I was studying. Suddenly I feel like saying something out when I listening to songs. Hmm abit emo? It's been few days I never update about myself. I was so called kind of busy these few days, study, sports, hang around.

Today is a lovely day. MOTHERS DAY!! Happy Mothers Day to all the mothers out there. Hope every mother enjoyed their day... I couldn't celebrate anything with mum so what I can do is just say that 'Love you mum....muakz' THANK YOU for everything. MIsS you

This week for me quite lots of unhappy things happened. I didn't get the result that I wanted in exam, I screwed up my quiz which I am not supposed to. I couldn't play well in sports. I couldn't concentrate during lectures. Sigh, unlucky. That's not the end. There is another thing follows up.

Well, I started working as waitress in this cafe on the past Friday, Saturday and today. It was really tough for me I guess. I was really scared and nervous not because of the job I am doing but I think more to the environment? How will I expect that I will be working with all the whites one day. Their fluent English totally stunned me, I was a bit slow to catch what they trying to say. Things got tougher when my clumsy illness strikes me. I just spilt drinks today. DOUBLE STRIKE somemore. Then those people at the bar showed their black face to me making me feel so bad and sad. Everything just didn't go well. Even when I cleaning also I can dropped the knifes and forks all. Today was really a bad day for me. I wasn't really in the mood of working the whole day. SOb sob.....For that moment I really feel like hugging someone, I was so scared and panic.

Anyways, that's my day for today. Everything went to work. I didn't even have much time for study. That is why I am still awake now. TO STUDY!!! Hope so that I can cope everything as soon as possible. Finals are coming in a month time. Not going to waste too much time on others. I don't want to screw up my finals again. If not I think that time you'll see my face at headlines. GOSH, university life = begining of stressful life.... Ain't it supposed to be a relax one?

Success comes from failure

Failure always come with success

if u want success u must go through failure

people can handle success very easily

but what about failure?

human take success as a good one

and take failure as a bad one..

but do people ever think that failure

is also part of the road to success?

some people just can't take failure as a process...

they take it as the end..

i wonder how many people in the world can

take failure as part of success?

am i the person that can do that?

or i am the person that take failure as the end?

i want to b a successful person who had

come over lots of failure in my path...

only these can make me grow up and b a matured thinking person..

i just need to figure a way

to accept the failure that i will meet.....

This was written by me I think a year ago? I can't even recognise this piece of work. I didn't know that I can write such thing.

UltimatE perSon EveR

On 3rd of May 1964, a ultimate man was born to the land of Earth. Today is his forty-four years old birthday. He is my BELOVED DAD. There, the photo of him with all the tatoos around him.Looks like gengster or mafia right? Don't doubt he is my father but definitely not gengster. He is the most lovely Dad in the love. Don't judge a book by it's cover.

It's my bad that now only I recall his birthday. Sorry Dad. For the past twenty years, I never really celebrate any of his birthday as he doesn't like us to do all the nonsense celebration thingy. He is just so cool and take everything easy. For him, birthday is just nothing.

He came all the way long from Pahang to work when he is at the age of twelve. I was really impressed with his brave decision. That is the period when she get to know mummy and get married.

Another important person of mine, MUMMY!!!

Belows are their master pieces of hard work........

Their darling daughters.......Looks alike? People always say we don't look alike.

My GOD this dummy looking guy..... Dota, maple story whatever games freak who always make my Dad gets on his nerves.

TaDA.... GOLD CUP of da house, everybody loves IVAN.....

Dad has been working hard for the sake of us, to make sure his family lives in a comfort environment all the time. He is really a responsible and humour man. I love him the most when he is being funny, but please better don't joke around with him when you saw his face is black. You will get thunder storm!!!!!!

DADDY

*hot temper

*like to disturb people

*fat with big belly

*like to sleep

*used to smoke but stopped (His determination is the one I admire)

*like to talk crap

P/S : That's all I can say about him. I can't really think anything bout him now. Keke.

Hey Dad,

You have been working so hard for all of us, yet you still need to work hard now to feed us. Please remember that you definitely need a good rest as well. Don't overwork yourself! Later me only will be heartache. You don't want that right. I am still your lovely daughter isn't it? Haha.

THANK YOU very much for giving us whatever you have.

THANK YOU for your caring loves.

THANK YOU for educates us to be a great person.

THANK YOU for being a best Dad and spend all your time with us.

THANK YOU for everything.

WE LOVE YOU ALL THE TIME.

I LOVE YOU!!

This is our very first family photo ever took. This is at the airport when I am leaving to Australia for further studies. All above are my family member include the woman at the rightmost, who is my maid for eight years. She is not just a maid of us but part of us. Family SWEET family...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!!!

May all your wishes come true~ STAY HEALTHY AND HAPPY ya....

I will celebrate with you when I go back at the year end... MUAKZZzz.......

Week of UNi

After a long long week, I finaaly can set myself free and sit in front of the laptop. I was having my mid semester exam throughout the whole month. The most nonsense I ever had is, before I end my mid semester exam, I already got my timetable for my finals. This means that I don't have any time to rest and I shall start preparing for it.

This is the first week of lecture after two weeks break, everyone is so reluctant to go back to school, still adjusting their mode into study mode. But lecturers all won't wait for you, they still going around very fast as usual. Assignments and quizes are like mountains waiting for me. Oh my god, I wonder how can I go through all the stress. I am going to be crazy.

Anyway, there is one more month to go for winter break. Most of my friends are going back to Malaysia only two three of us will be around. I will get myself to work and learn something during the month. I can't wait until December to go back. I miss home again. Last night, my aunt from Singapore called me. She knows that I am having hard time and trying to comfort me, it's been some time that I didn't see her. It's so touched that she called me juz for that, tears almost drop out again.

My days here like getting dull and dull. I finally can understand why they said there is no life in Canberra. Like last night, we wanted to have dinner together then a movie break after that. It s so so so hard for us to get into a restaurant, cause yesterday is Friday and it's the day where everyone will come out to chill. Ended up we can only have Nando's which we already had it for fews day in a row. Bored with it. Canberra is really very small, I walk the whole city in a day probably lesser than that. Then we went for Iron Man. There is some difference between Australia and Malaysia cinema, they are free seating but their chairs are so so so so comfortable. Then when the movie is showing some part which amazed the audience, the audience will clap hand to show their respect to the director. So different from Malaysia.

Oh ya, the pass Wednesday was Melissa 21st birthday. Hope she enjoyed our dinner and cake. I love that cake!!!!!!!!! But no pictures. Sob sob. Anyway, HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MELISSA!!! MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE....HAVE FUN WITH US!!!

Well, I think I shall go back to study now. Not much thing I can blog about. Probably I shall find something interesting to post. You gotta stay tune for it!!!!!!