Politicals

Two more weeks there will be election for MSO commitee. MSO is Malaysian Student Organisation in ANU and it's the most active society in ANU. Everyone is campaigning in order to gain more votes during the election. There is total 8 positions, President, Vice President, Secretary, Treasurer and 4 General Commitees. Now that there is this party running around the campus stating who is running for all the above positions. The main thing is there is few candidates that none of us reckon as capable.

So basically what we did is we decided to just ignore what we saw. But the other day a friend of mine was telling me that since we are not satisfied with them we should in fact get someone who can run against them. I do admit that I have the intention to run for a position at first, but my intention just vanish from my thoughts after I saw the party formed.

I think I wouldn't like to be part of them. Obtaining votes through networks and not capababiity is always not what I am looking forward to. Of course, if you have the capabability and people vote for that it would be a different thing. But it seems like they are helping each other to get the positions in MSO neglecting the other members. It seems like University also have all the political issues.

I was chatting with my friend about this. She actually did some analysis on me. According to her, I am those kind of person who can excel in analysis problems than making decisions. Her best suggestion is vice president because vice president's job is less stressful and it seems like easier. I don't know whether I should take it as complement or what. It make me sounds like I am like a worthless piece of paper. Hehe.... I always know that I can't do a good job if I am stress out. My EQ is very low. And what I have done all this year is to improve my EQ, but it seems that it never gets better. I might need to work harder then....

I just feel that from this issue, I think I might need to work harder and improve myself. I couldn't give people the impression that I am capable, people just don't recognise me as someone better. Sometimes I do feel that people will only thought of me when all the good one they thought are gone. I just don't stand out as someone special. But this will not stop me to be a better one.

I made a wish for my birthday this year...

I hope I can be someone people acknowledged as BEST.

Words of thankz~

I will really say that I had a great birthday here. Without your care, love and thoughts my birthday might be nothing......nothing at all....

Really appreciated what you guys did for me, all the celebrations, all the efforts, all the thoughts, all the wishes, all the calls........ Really thank you very much. I am not a good writer or a good speaker, other than saying thank you and giving hugs I don't know what else I can do to express my feelings. I hope you guys can really feel the appreciations and love from me.

First celebration
This is the party organized by my housemate and coursemates. They really put in lots of effort to live up the party and try to do whatever they can to make sure I am contented. Thank you sooo much.....

*Huiling*
*Kahee*
*Shuyi*
*Chivone*
*Geofrrey*
*Huiqin*
*Aron*
*Dexter*
*Sunchuan*

Eve and the Day after
What else I can say bout you guys? Nothing much but just want to give everyone of you a big hug. You guys have been the one take caring of me ever since I stepped into land of Australia. Helping me in so many things. Really glad that I got to know the most incredible leng chais and leng luis in ANU. Thank you so much Leng chais and Leng luis.....Love you guys... Muakzz

*Sher Reen*
*Weiling*
*Melissa*
*Latha*
*Gordon*
*Qizheng*
*Zhiyuan*
*Alex*
*Melvin*

On the day
Nothing much I did today like I said. It's all the wishes and calls that make me feel warm and hot even without the heater especially those who called from Malaysia. Thank you so much. And I definitely missing you guys now!!! Definitely!

*Anne*
*Siewwui*
*Kelly*
*Leong*
*Cheah Siang*

Thanks guy for the calls. It really nice and warm to hear your voices in such a cold weather. Cheah siang actually recorded birthday song sng by him and sent to me through msn. Thank you soo much. That's really so nice of you. You are the sweetest............. THANKS darlings....


Of course thanks again for those who send me wishes through sms, friendster and facebook. There is quite a number of you so I couldn't actually list our every name here. But But But, you all still receive the most sincere thanks from my heart. HEART to HEART..... Hehe.

Last but not least, there is one person I never mention even in the previous blog. But she is the most important person. My MUMMY.... Thanks you soo much mum... Without you I couldn't be in any part of the world now... Your love is my everything.. Thank you so much..... I MISS YOU...DAd... The same thing goes to you.... I know I am like you, don't really know how to express our feeling...hehe...LOVE YOU...*muakz*




THOUSANDS HUGs and MUAKZz

GREATEST BIRTHDAY!!!

HEY, Jessw is here to update and brighten up her blog!! It's been some time that i never upate anything so today i am here to update myself. The most recent activity and fun I had would be my birthday!!!

First Celebration

Really had a first ever great birthday at Australia. I feel so loved and warm although my family wasn't with me. Last Saturday, my coursemates actually organized a party celebration for three of us, Jesses, Aron and Sunchuan. Since our birthdays are on 24,25 and 26.

Well everything went pretty well, and I actually got three birthday cakes!!!! One from shop, one made by Huiling and another one is muffin I brought back from work. Keke. There is about 10 of us and what I did that night was camwhoring around with them.

Unfortunately my best camwhore partner wasn't around with me, right Siewwui? Haha, I bet she is missing me sooo much now at home!

Anyways, the birthday party was definitely fantastic!

Camwhore FREAK!

Presentees of the night...

Cool posers....

Jessw, Aron, Sunchuan

Made by Huiling, brought back from work by Jess, bought by Aron

Eve

But that's not the end of the story yet. On 25th night, I thought I will just spend my last few minutes of teens in my room doing my assignment. I wasn't really have the mood to make a big deal about my 20th. Anne called me at 12am and wished me. I have never hear from her for so long.... I guess I really miss her. ANNE you are the FIRST person to wish me!! Be PROUD!!

When I was just into the phone call, I heard Sher Reen shouted my name outside my room. I guess I knew what happened. There is a moment that I thought that everyone is here to suprise me, but that just slipped through my mind as I thought it might be only Sher Reen and Zhi Yuan. Fortunately, I was wrong. Everyone is here!! For who??? For Jessw Wong Yunn Yi's big 20th!!

It was the BEST night ever!! I really feel so glad and touched that they actually celebrated for me. There was some time that my first 20 years old tear almost drop out. That's really so sweet of them and I am really appreciating what they did and our friendships.

Siewwui called me after that thinking I never receive her birthday message. But I expected that she will call me cause I know she will never forget her best partner's birthday! It's just a matter of timing, right?

Thank you so much for those who remember and wished me. Wishes are just great enough to change my day! I just love it when my phone receives calls and messages. Well, that's pretty much of the eve.



The suprising moments....

Tada...Suprised!!
My Beautiful cake!

On the day

I was late for class! I didn't do much thing today. What I did was just stay in my room doing my tutorial. Haha. But the best thing is the birthday wishes and calls still coming in. Kelly actually called me from Sydney and sang a birthday song to me. That's sooooooo sweet of her... Thankz Kelly! Eventually, Cheah Siang too recorded a birthday song sang by himself and wished me through msn. Thankz dude... Leong also called me from Malaysia to present me with his so called lovely voice. Anyways, thankz! Remember to treat me when I go back home!

It seems like on the day itself is the most boring day...Hahaha...

The day after

My Birthday dinner was postponed till the second day Weiling and Melissa got exam this afternoon. We went dinner at IORI, a japanese restaurant with very GOOD price. I had salmon for my dinner. Don't ever that its a piece of salmon with some rice. Look at the picture below! It's all salmon dish!! Saw the small glass there? It's full of the eggs!!!!!! This is really very nice!! They said it's better than jogoya. I have never try that so I can't compare. But the meal was superb. Trust me! I was pretty tired when I was having dinner cause I never sleep for the 2 nights before. Really can't stand longer. But I was energized when they gave me present!! My First present for 20th birthday!! Guess what they gave me? An IPOD NANO that I wanted to buy so long ago!!!! It's good that they can read my mind cause I never tell anyone I want one also. This is really great birthday present!!

Girls of the night

Guys of the night

Exciting moments of unwrapped the present

Here we go here we go....
YAY...yippy.... It's ipod Nano....

*Thoughts*

Every gift you receive from your friends represent something. It tells that you are being remembered, you are part of them. The gift is the bond, the friendship between you and them. You are happy and smilling all the time when you receive a present, not cause of the materials but you know you are gifted with such a great friendship.

I know I am being surrounded by great friendships, that's why I think that Jess Wong Yunn Yi is always the luckiest person in the world. Thankz. Love you people... *hugss*

UPdate!

Feel like wanted to update myself now! But that will be in few more hours coz i gotta rush for class now..... Will see you guys in no time...!!!!! Aiks Aiks....

NOT MY DAY!!

I thought today is my day. Everything seems to be fine since morning, even I was in real good mood. I was listening to lecture and putting on earphone at the same time. It was a great start!

However, it was a fault start! When I went for finance lecture I left out my notes on my room's table. I forgot to bring along my notes last week and today, deja vu. Then I started to fall asleep. Just 15mins more before lecture ended, I never realized that my phone was still playing songs and I plugged off the earphone. Out of the sudden, my phone played the song using loudspeaker. The lecturer was like saying 'That's very good'. Make me freaking panic and have to switch off immediately.

Then when I came home and wanted to vacuum my house, the bloody vacuum was not working. This is the second time I borrowed the vacuum from reception. I have to go down all the way from forth floor just to borrow and return that useless thing. I am going to buy one soon I think. Waste my time and energy just to get that.

After that I went cooking also, burnt my tongue. Haih..... Please stop all the unfortunate moments on me please. Don't ever break my good day!! SIEN ARrRRRRRRrrr!!!

Somemore I can't watch olympic games that I wanted to here. The network here only shows games which involve Aussies. How unfair is that. SOBbbbb......

Missing home already...... T.T

Crying for it....

Second night I stayed myself up till middle of the night. Not doing others stuff, two eyes of mine just trying their very best to concentrate on few pieces of lectures handout, struggling to figure the best solution. Solution to? Problems in the handouts? Nah.... It's the Olympic's games.....

I couldn't watch it over here. Australia is not part of badminton...... Sigh

Time's up before I can write more. Study time....

Tired

It's 7.57pm now. Out of sudden I feel very tired. Not physically tired but mentally tired. I am now sitting alone in the room stoning. This is the third blog I am writing for the day.

I am tired. Tired of study? Tired of working? Probably last night drank too much and cause my body feel so feeble now. Tired of competing with others to excel. It is always in my mind that I have to work hard and hard in order to excel. I will feel uneasy when I saw someone did better than me. I know it's not good for me to think that way but I just can't stop my brain to function.

In another way, I would say myself as can't afford to take failures. For a moment, I thought I am over it. I am no longer someone can't afford to lose. Eventually I am worse than who I used to be. I guess that's the main reason I am tired. I really don't feel like competing and give myself a relax and better lifestyle. But you think that's going to happen? NO WAY unless you want to sleep under the bridge next time..

ARGHHH, I need to make my life easierrrrr..... Siennnn arrr!!!

Loneliness

I am feeling miserable now. I read some blogs of my friends. I realized that everyone seems to be having the some problems. Loneliness. Even I am also having the same feeling. I am surrounded by lots of friends everyday, they are supposed to be like part of my family taking care of each other. But I just couldn't trust them completely as what I did for my family and friends back in Malaysia. I feel lonely. I feel that I can't get a friend who I can actually talk to here, I feel that I have to change myself in order to click with them. I feel like I am not being myself sometimes.

Now that we mentioned this, I sort of agree when people said we can always get good and close friends during our primary and high school. Is this true? I don't know. The feelings I got here when I mix around with people are very different compared to old time. It's like you need to be careful and aware all the time because you will never know what kinda person are them. They might be the one harming you at the end though they treat you super nice at the begining. They seems to be caring but they actually care more to themselves.

Friendships are always hanging outside their mouth, but when come to action different things turned up. Somehow I got the feeling that they treat you based on the value of your friendships. If you are nothing then you please stand aside, if you are needed please show up yourself. Of course not everyone is like this. All this is just base on my observations and thoughts.

Whether is it true or false statement, we will see how in future then..............................

International Ball

Yesterday was International Ball 2008 of ANU. It's kind off grand event according to my friends because it involves students from all over the asia countries. I don't know I just know that I am not that prepared to go to the ball. I thought it was just a simple n lousy don't know what ball but everyone is so on for it.

Next year I must make sure I am really prepared for it. Photos can be viewed at my facebook http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=531847563
I very lazy want to upload here. Hehe. Nothing much about the ball I can say about just two course meals and some performances. I was thinking when I can be like one of them and performing on the stage. It seems like I am a bit into performing now.

Well after party is the most important thing here. CLUBBING!! But please don't misunderstand as I am not a clubbing person.

First, drinking is definitely not what I prefer.
Secondly, noisy and loud music will never be in my music library.
Third, I am not a dancing person as in not good in dancing but will love to learn.
Forth, rationally I won't spend money on all the nonsense alcohol which will bring you suffers.

Unfortunately, whatever I mentioned above is what I did last night, OOOPPPSSSSyy!!

Drink : I took about 6-7 glasses of shot. And it's not all the same!! One rule you can never break if you don't want to get drunk!!
Loud and noisy music : I somemore complained the music wasn't good enough to dance or make us high. Music was bad to dance.
Dance : No doubt I was dancing the whole night!!
Money : ????? Don't even know how much I spent....... Ended up reach home vomitted the whole night. Somemore I left my passport in the toilet...GOOD!!!!