LONELY holiday

It's been a week after my exams over but I haven't really got the time to update my blog not even online. Everyone ended trying to contact me to see whether I am alright or anything happened to me or not. Looks like the inconsistency of me not online cause some people to worry. Thanks guy that's really very sweet of you people. The reasons I am not online is mainly because I was moving out from my last time place to my new place. HEAVEN!! Haha. Another thing is I am working that is why I don't really have time to do my things. I haven't even talk to my mum for a week. Oh ya, I got training everyday in the noon as well to prepare to go for MASCA in Brisbane next week.

Well, nothing really much happened through out this week. Everyone just finished their exams and my friends moslty went back to Malaysia left only four of us. I had been so bored for the past whole week, time is passing so slow now. It's like three weeks holiday for me whereas it is only a week. Maybe because we don't really have anything for holiday.

LONELY holiday.......

EXAMS OVER

It's been two days after I finished my exams and now only I am free to sit down here and write something. Before I speak about what happened these two days, I wanted to apologize to everyone who read my blogs especially Anne, Siew Wui and Kelly who trusted me so much yet I disappointed them. I was bored during that time when I am writting the blog about going back due to exams. I started with my sister at first and I got so excited and post it on the blog. I know that this is childish and stupid, so please accept my APOLOGIES. Really sorry,please let me know if I can do anything to repay what I did.

Finally exams are over, I am totally stress free now. But this ain't a good thing as well because I don't know what to do other than working. Life is like going to be so bored. I don't know how am I going to survive through this winter break, mostly I think I am going to catch up with all the series and anime. So if you have any nice series, feel free to send it to me. I will definitely welcome you.

On last Friday after the last paper, I walked around in the city for about 6 to 7 hours excluding dinner time. Just feel like wasting time since time is so precious before this, and now time is like worthless. After the long day, I only bought a ten dollars dress. The opportunity cost for that dress is really high, I walked 6 7 hours for that. I was really tired. Saturday I went working in the noon till evening and night I had some so called room warming for one of my friends who just moved in one of the campus's hall(hall here referred to the hostel). Apparently everyone is just relaxing and celebrates after exams. Everyone gone crazy for that, imagine sixteen people with two small rice cooker.

I didn't manage to snap any photos that night, I think my new friends all are not camwhore like me. That is why I never dare to ask anyone for photos sessions. Well, sweet memories we saved it in the brain. I didn't go home that night, I stayed in my new accomodation which I will be moving in after two weeks. Can't wait for it. But actually I am moving out tomorrow from the hell place I am currently staying to another campus's hall in Weiling's room. She is going back Malaysia on Tuesday, and I will be using her place for two weeks.That will be damn fun. It's always what I want to be on campus.

OH ya, there is another funny thingy. People who see me around no matter friends or not, they will always ask me only one question. ' Ain't you feel cold? Your jumper is so thin' haha... Yea now is winter and the temperature is dropping from day to day. Yet I am still with my jumper where people usually wear during summer, authumn and spring. They think I am crazy. But the fact is, I am used to the cold or I shall say I am numb with the cold and also I don't have a thick jumper. Maybe I shall get one soon since everyone is complaining the same thing to me over and over again.

I better stop here now, guess you guys will be boring reading all the rubbish I said. I am tired after working as well, so see you soon in few days time. I am going to Brisbane next week, so this week is going to be so busy for me. I haven't even book the ticket back from Brisbane to Canberra. Wonder how am I going to come back on the 4th July. ARGHHHHH!!!

APOLOGIES

HEY June doesn't have 31st...I was just joking around due to my boredom in the library....Gotta go back prepare for exam..I will have explaination for that after exam okay... ZILLIONS APOLOGIES to everyone!!!!!!

Half more to go

Half of burden which bear by my shoulder have finally gone. Two more paper to go. I am not as stress as before this. The coming papers are all based on calculations, hopefully I can handle the questions. I really don't have any idea on how to improve my maths in two days. I will just go for my best rather than give up and flung it. Right Anne? I really didn't flung any of my paper. My economics paper this morning was pretty good though I didn't finish all the questions due to time shortage. But that was fine, most important thing is I know that I actually can answer all the questions. My time management is bad......

Few more days to go then I will be having a month holidays. Out of a month, four days I will be in Brisbane for sports events organised by MASCA(Malaysian something something student council association in Australia). The remaining days will be my full time working days, have to save money can't go anywhere. Hopefully I can see Kelly here with me. Then I won't be so bored and lonely since mostly of my friends going back Malaysia. How nice it will be if I am also one of them going back.

I bet lotsa people out there missing me so much. God~ I just did an unforgiven sin by not going back. SORRY guys...*perasan till da max* I shall start planning on how to fully utilize my holiday. Movies? Dramas? Series? Cook? Anyone please give me more and more idea on what I can do. I can't wait holiday to come but what can I do during holiday? Canberra will be like cemetary, so peace and quiet. *ooopss*

Crapping too much ain't going to contributes to my paper tomorrow. So tata....

Sudden thoughts

One more week to go to set me free of exams. Can I endure through the week? Hope so I can make it to Friday's noon before I K.O. University's life ain't as easy as I thought, ain't as relax as I heard from others. It's a test on consistency of studying. If you are left out by a week, you still got hope to catch up. If you left out by two weeks, you better start burning midnight oil. If you miss lectures by three weeks, you give up to go lecture hall anymore. You start study by yourself but it doesn't really work out as efficient as I thought. I wasn't study consistently eventhough I am not going for lectures. This is why I am procrastinating at the worst now. Regrets? Yes I did.

The same thing happened to my friends. Everyone seems like hoping to pass only, or rather just flung the paper. That's what going on in my mind last night. Everyone wishes to more more time or studied harder. Some even thought of forfeiting $2500 and retake the subject-DROPPED WITHOUT FAILURE. Lots of insane ideas just suddenly popped out of no where. Obviously I am not the one going to do that, I am not here to waste my parents' money neither my time as well; quoted by anne. The only person I always hope to get scolded from, her words always wake me up from devilish. That's my sweetheart. How can I live without her?

Been thinking lots of thing these few days. Probably tired of staring at notes. Illusions and imaginations keep appearing in my brain. Makes me feel like I haven't been doing anything great for the past 19 years plus. I don't even have great future plannings like the others do. I just want to graduate as soon as possible and get back to my mum's side. Maybe I should start planning during this winter break. It's time to grow up.

Yewhoo

I think I gone crazy already because I was smilling all the time since morning. Today I had my business accounting exam which I can actually do all the question. However, due to my smartness in misinterpreting the question, my HD going to say bye to me. The only hope now is that hope they will scale up the grades but it seems very unlikely. Sigh.

Anyways, this morning I met with this woman when I was on my way to campus. She was a PHD student doing law, 30 plus years old with a son. She asked me to lead her to campus to attend some conference. I had quite a good talk with her. One thing I like about Australia, people here are real friendly. We used to read in the essays and articles saying that Malaysian are very friendly, but after I came here seriously I don't see any friendly-ness in Malaysian. Even I admit myself is that as friendly as them but I am learning to be one of them. It's really happy that I can helped someone early in the morning and she appreciated what I did for her. The most important thing is she wished my good luck for my exams.

Though I didn't do well in my exam, I wasn't sad as I expected. I actually felt relief that I completed one of my finals. Just feel wasted that I misinterpret the question but it's alright. After that I spent my whole day in the library preparing for my next exam already. Really hope that times pass faster.. please please.....

Ermm, I actually got something wanted to say but I forgotten already. Anyways, the main thing is I am happy today. NO stress, RElaxx........

P/S : I am moving out next week!! Yippy

Study till sot liao!!

Its a long long morning. I have been lazing and studying since 8 something. It seems like I wasn't productive as well today.Haih...I should have go to library and procrastinate.

I am having my first final paper tomorrow. I am so called prepared for it but I don't know how am I going to do. Just hope that everything will be fine. Please pray for me that I can do well. I don't want to screw up everything please please...

Well, actually what I want to say here is I think I am slowly recovered from last week incident. I don't want to bother what people say or think about me already. I will just do and go with my own opinion. Be myself.... Its meaningless to change yourself for others, if they don't like how you are, there is no point you hanging out with them. So let thing happens on how it should be. Right?

Yesterday I had some chat with Peiying, she gave some opinion about studying in canada. Since she might going over there I might consider going there as well if I am financially affordable. Must calculate the cost first, later my marginal cost exceed my marginal benefit my mum will slaughter me. But at the same time I want to exchange to UK as well since ngsiewwui will be going there but I don't think UK got actuarial studies.... Sad for you nsw...

okok, done crapping...It's time to get back to study now.. I will update more and more after my exam okay.... First semester going to end soon. My friends all complaining that this semester pass very fast, but I am different. I am happy that time pass so fast. This indicates that I am nearer to the date that I will be back home...home sweet home~~~~~I miss my bed...

But my bed is now being occupied by my sister's friend who will be staying with my family for 2 months. She can't get accomodation like me!!!! That's why I can understand her feeling very well. That's why she is sleeping on my bed now if not..............My bed is not everyone can sleep oneokay...Need the Permission from the OWNER=ME......

I......

Something unhappy happened again.
I am down for once more.
Tears finally dropping out of my eyes.
I couldn't stand this anymore by myself.
I really hope to find someone who I can rely on.
I no longer know who to trust who not to trust.
Apparently, I was just something that people used to fill up their time.
Something that they will call you when they need you.

Don't ask me why I like this or why I like that.
Now is definitely the wrong timing for you to ask me because that will be too late to ask bout it.
Or maybe actually there is no one is listening to me all the time.
I was talking to myself all the time.
Am I having a good life here?
For the moment I just want to see my mum and a hug from her for to me cry out.

Barista

Whow, today is like long day for me. It seems like lotsa thing happened today. I woke up quite early today because I thought of study a while before I go for work. But ended up I was lazying around and watched anime. I should have saved the time for sleep.

Anyways, today work went quite until the last 2 hours, I accidentally broke a glass due to my clumsiness. My mood was totally spoilt by it. Before that I was already not really happy, don't know why. Maybe because I keep felt something is wrong but I don't know what. Everytime I go work I sure feel that way, I feel like people are thinking that I am dumb, that I couldn't do a single thing. OMG I am being so paranoia nowadays...

Well, last Monday I went to coffee course. I did learn something within the four hours. At least I am no longer a coffee noob and I can make coffee now. Please I don't mean those coffee made using 3 in 1 coffee powder with hot water okay. What I am doing is really using coffee machine, with coffee beans grinding machine. Sound pro right? I finally found that making coffee is quite fun and cool.
See? Imagine you making coffee with that...COOLL
Let's see how many coffee I can make now......

CAPPUCINO
Coffee with a layer of float on top. NICEE....My favourite..

CAFE LATTE
Don't call it latte in Europe country, they will serve you with hot milk......

Long/Short Black
The coffee without milk...PUre caffein..

MOCHA
Coffee that come with Chocolate.....My favourite also

Flat White
The only coffee you found in Australia? I never heard of flat white before I came to Australia. It's actually almost the same with cafe latte just that they put it in different cup? I would say this is slighly stronger than cafe latte but not as strong as cappucino. Try it...

Haha, I can really make coffee isn't it.... I am still practicing to make some shape on top of it... I need more time.

Relief

Anne and Siew Wui said what I did wasn't being rude. It's just that I know I am not going to see her in short run that's why I am leaving her notes. Their words really make me feel better because at least there is someone who agree with what I did. Really don't have the intention of being rude. Don't bother what others said as long as you didn't do what they said. Thankz babes.... Love you..Muakzz

DUmbneSS

OMG I did something stupid again today. What the hell is wrong with me? I am moving out from my current living place soon. So I wanted to tell my housemate that I am moving out but I know I can't get the chance to talk to her at least for few days. When she is home I am not, when I am home she is working. So I decided to leave a note to her saying that I am moving out soon. My intention was just wanted to inform her as soon as possible so that she can know and think what she can do with it.

But when I told my friends about what I did, everyone got a damn big shock. Everyone showing me the same face reaction. I was like, ' Shit! Did I do anything wrong?' They said it's very rude for me to do that because I didn't show my respect to her. But that wasn't the thing that running in my brain when I am writing the notes. I was like OMg what the hell I did again.

I wrote the note this morning and I was absent minded the whole day. I don't know what the hell I am doing even when I am working. It might seems rude that I just leave her the note in that way but that's really not my intention. Anyhow, I still think that I should leave her the note because I don't know to let her know too late or be the one to know from others. Just that maybe it's true that the way I do it is rude.

I felt damn bad and guilty for what they have told me. But the truth is not that I don't show my respect to her, in fact I think I respect her that's why I am leaving her a note rather than she knows it from others. I will apologize to her due to my rudeness and talk to her again in personal. But yeah, I just want to let her know what's going on after all.

Anyways, I am moving out soon so I shall be happy and party over it!! But exams coming real soon which is next week. So ya don't think about it, everything will turn out fine.... Better don't screw up my exams!

Fat

I fat already! where is my dietician? How to lose 10kg?

paiseh

I got exams coming next week....no more post in short run....paiseh paiseh but will update myself asap..