NOT MY DAY!!

I thought today is my day. Everything seems to be fine since morning, even I was in real good mood. I was listening to lecture and putting on earphone at the same time. It was a great start!

However, it was a fault start! When I went for finance lecture I left out my notes on my room's table. I forgot to bring along my notes last week and today, deja vu. Then I started to fall asleep. Just 15mins more before lecture ended, I never realized that my phone was still playing songs and I plugged off the earphone. Out of the sudden, my phone played the song using loudspeaker. The lecturer was like saying 'That's very good'. Make me freaking panic and have to switch off immediately.

Then when I came home and wanted to vacuum my house, the bloody vacuum was not working. This is the second time I borrowed the vacuum from reception. I have to go down all the way from forth floor just to borrow and return that useless thing. I am going to buy one soon I think. Waste my time and energy just to get that.

After that I went cooking also, burnt my tongue. Haih..... Please stop all the unfortunate moments on me please. Don't ever break my good day!! SIEN ARrRRRRRRrrr!!!

Somemore I can't watch olympic games that I wanted to here. The network here only shows games which involve Aussies. How unfair is that. SOBbbbb......

Missing home already...... T.T

Crying for it....

Second night I stayed myself up till middle of the night. Not doing others stuff, two eyes of mine just trying their very best to concentrate on few pieces of lectures handout, struggling to figure the best solution. Solution to? Problems in the handouts? Nah.... It's the Olympic's games.....

I couldn't watch it over here. Australia is not part of badminton...... Sigh

Time's up before I can write more. Study time....

Tired

It's 7.57pm now. Out of sudden I feel very tired. Not physically tired but mentally tired. I am now sitting alone in the room stoning. This is the third blog I am writing for the day.

I am tired. Tired of study? Tired of working? Probably last night drank too much and cause my body feel so feeble now. Tired of competing with others to excel. It is always in my mind that I have to work hard and hard in order to excel. I will feel uneasy when I saw someone did better than me. I know it's not good for me to think that way but I just can't stop my brain to function.

In another way, I would say myself as can't afford to take failures. For a moment, I thought I am over it. I am no longer someone can't afford to lose. Eventually I am worse than who I used to be. I guess that's the main reason I am tired. I really don't feel like competing and give myself a relax and better lifestyle. But you think that's going to happen? NO WAY unless you want to sleep under the bridge next time..

ARGHHH, I need to make my life easierrrrr..... Siennnn arrr!!!

Loneliness

I am feeling miserable now. I read some blogs of my friends. I realized that everyone seems to be having the some problems. Loneliness. Even I am also having the same feeling. I am surrounded by lots of friends everyday, they are supposed to be like part of my family taking care of each other. But I just couldn't trust them completely as what I did for my family and friends back in Malaysia. I feel lonely. I feel that I can't get a friend who I can actually talk to here, I feel that I have to change myself in order to click with them. I feel like I am not being myself sometimes.

Now that we mentioned this, I sort of agree when people said we can always get good and close friends during our primary and high school. Is this true? I don't know. The feelings I got here when I mix around with people are very different compared to old time. It's like you need to be careful and aware all the time because you will never know what kinda person are them. They might be the one harming you at the end though they treat you super nice at the begining. They seems to be caring but they actually care more to themselves.

Friendships are always hanging outside their mouth, but when come to action different things turned up. Somehow I got the feeling that they treat you based on the value of your friendships. If you are nothing then you please stand aside, if you are needed please show up yourself. Of course not everyone is like this. All this is just base on my observations and thoughts.

Whether is it true or false statement, we will see how in future then..............................

International Ball

Yesterday was International Ball 2008 of ANU. It's kind off grand event according to my friends because it involves students from all over the asia countries. I don't know I just know that I am not that prepared to go to the ball. I thought it was just a simple n lousy don't know what ball but everyone is so on for it.

Next year I must make sure I am really prepared for it. Photos can be viewed at my facebook http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=531847563
I very lazy want to upload here. Hehe. Nothing much about the ball I can say about just two course meals and some performances. I was thinking when I can be like one of them and performing on the stage. It seems like I am a bit into performing now.

Well after party is the most important thing here. CLUBBING!! But please don't misunderstand as I am not a clubbing person.

First, drinking is definitely not what I prefer.
Secondly, noisy and loud music will never be in my music library.
Third, I am not a dancing person as in not good in dancing but will love to learn.
Forth, rationally I won't spend money on all the nonsense alcohol which will bring you suffers.

Unfortunately, whatever I mentioned above is what I did last night, OOOPPPSSSSyy!!

Drink : I took about 6-7 glasses of shot. And it's not all the same!! One rule you can never break if you don't want to get drunk!!
Loud and noisy music : I somemore complained the music wasn't good enough to dance or make us high. Music was bad to dance.
Dance : No doubt I was dancing the whole night!!
Money : ????? Don't even know how much I spent....... Ended up reach home vomitted the whole night. Somemore I left my passport in the toilet...GOOD!!!!